I reached it. My Limits...

Its been a long time since i played the role i knew i should play in the stage of my journey. It would be early i guess for me to say now, that i fully understood the trade. They, the crowds, the individualities, i knew them. i deeply knew the knowledge they're crazy of. that is the same knowlegde that spelled me to my justification today. and for some reasons, i made a theory out of it based on my experience using this art, and i concluded these things:

1. there is no satisfaction guaranteed. as long as there are species of your type ahead of you, surely youll fetch for some and wont stop fetching for it is invitingly boundless.
   
2. there is love ofcourse. a love that is too intellectual to understand. and for some, its unnatural thing for humans.
   
3. No questions. its absolute and true. but you cannot hide the fact someday, somehow it would have to end. and all you can do is to reminisc, those countless sacrifices you made together. for both of you are not meant tobe.
   
4. that it gives you a taste of heaven and identity for a minute, for a week, for as long as you want. but you know deep in you, you're not genuinely happy, later or sooner youll realize it didint satisfied your true heart down there, your soul.
   

and God's Promise will always be in completion to reality.

Maybe its enough to think that.., "Im a soul with a body." that whatever i do with my body it doeent affect my soul. but thats too logical to understand?..