Learn... that when you plan to get even with someone, you're only letting that person continue to hurt you.
Learn... that igonring the facts do not change the facts.
Learn... that the easiest way to grow as a person is to sorround yourself with people smarter than you are.
Learn... that no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.and learn... that life can be tough but can be tougher.

I don't know why we all hang on to something we know we're better off letting go.. It's like we're scared to loose what we don't even really have. Some of us say we'd rather have that someting than absolutely nothing...
But the truth is: To have it halfway is harder than not having it all
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Today I woke, bothered and worried. Worried about things I am fearful about but never really happened yet. My mind wanders about horrible and unhappy things like how I am going to die, what if i get hit by a car or slip and bang my head inside the bathroom and die. It seems that whenever I hear people speak of good words about me or agree with me with something, it seems all wrong. I think im going insane. I don't celebrate happiness very much thinking that something bad might happen in return. If I live to die, then what is my purpose? What is it that could really make me happy? I eat pain for breakfast, misery for lunch and paranoia for dinner. It seems that these three are my only companions. If being happy means being miserable, then I am happy.

Happiness only exists in fairytales and dreams, and just like books can be torn at the seams. If you think there is good in everybody, you haven't met everybody.

Lessons In Love

I've learned that being in love is the best thing that ever happened to my life.

I've learned that when in love,

its true that you can do things you've never cared to do before.

When love is not madness, it is not love.

Each day I love more.

Today more than yesterday and less than tomorrow.

I've learned that staying in love makes my life complete,

happy, hopeful, inspired, and all d best things i could put into it.

I've realized that I'm always in love and never get tired of it.

I've learned to take the chance and d risk of loving and being loved.

I am not afraid of failure and the hurts it might bring for the joy

and the beautiful memories of it will always be greater and sweeter to cherish.

I know that I'm not in love with love,

its just that there are too many lovely people coming and staying around me.

I've learned that if u wanna end up with the ryt one, u've gotta make it happpen.

The best ones are always taken, if you dont steal them, you won't have them!

Without love, what are we worth?

photos taken by: MG Shinoda using SONY Cyber-shot® DSC-W50

The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you.

Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of withering, of tarnishing.

When you realise You want to spend The rest of your life with somebody, You want the rest of your life To start as soon as possible.

I love you without knowing how, why, or even from where - Robin When you love someone, And you love them with your heart, It never disappears When you're apart. And when you love someone And you've done all you can do, You set them free, And if that love was true.... When you love someone It will all come back to you - Forget Paris You cannot find true love Where it does not truly exist And you cannot hide it where it truly does - The movie ...."kissing a fool"Will you love me for the rest of my life? No, I'll love you for the rest of mine. - From the movie Phenomenon Fate exists but it can only take you so far, Because once you're there It's up to you to make it happen.

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it that you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

..to Japz... from a friend...

I lit a candle of love and hope while listening to the beautiful
and yet dreary song of a Man....
How I wish I could see him from the dark
and make him feel that I have always been around waiting for his return....
Though I myself is not totally free,
but he knew from the very start that he occupies a very special place in my heart.
I wept in silence upon learning of his leaving.
And I couldn't blame him for not even priming me of his departure...
I didn't know anything about him.
And worst, I don't know whether I could see him again or not....

Hearing you sing excites my entire senses.
I feel invigorated as if I join the earth in welcoming the sun as it rises for a new day...

Hang on my dear friend.
Your self is your own strength.
You are young and very beautiful.
Be strong and brave.I don't exactly know your predicament.
I am here ready and very much willing to listen to you.....
Please open up to me.
I will listen.....

Do you remember my own journey?
It was hard and really difficult.
But I was able to survive!
Try to trust me....
You should.

Because you know how much I care for you.
And I love you.

God is good and You will never be forgotten...

...I waiting for that someone who has the magic to make me fall in love again...

Sometimes we close our eyes and just listen to the echoes to our hearts. We all fall in love and there are times when we love so much that we lose ourselves in our own emotions. More often than not we wonder why there are love that grows and love that grows cold. We would start to search for answers and try to find where love has gone wrong. But in the end we find ourselves, where we started for we cannot question love when it has its own reasons. Love will always be as it always has been …. silent, mysterious and deeply profound. Many of us believe that love is forever, that love never dies, only to be disillusioned in the end when we find our hands empty, and our hearts longing. We mistakenly have looked at love as a need to be fulfilled. But love is only a gift given to us. We should not hold it in our hands for we may never find the strength to let it go when it decides to leave. We should only embrace its warmth and glow while it last and then freely open our arms when its time to say good bye. When we fall in love with someone, we don’t want that feeling to end for it is everything we are, everything that we wanted to be. We pray that love will stay and grow in our hearts. But, if it doesn't then we should never let our lives be taken by it, for life should not end where heartaches begin. There is always a reason why we have to move on. When we have to say goodbye to the feelings we wanted to stay forever, let us not wave our hands with a heavy heart. For love will have to set its wings free and find the place where it belongs. We may have lost It but then again, when we close our eyes and listen to the echoes of our hearts, we will hear that feeling resounding silently forever. Then we'll know that it has never left us, for the good that we have become because of love will always stay. It will always be there reminding us that we should be thankful and happy, Not because we have lost love, but because, for once in our lives, that feeling lived in our hearts and made us happy.

Remembering You...The Tragedy Of Love

I wonder if he remembers me...Or if I'm just a memory
I wonder if he thinks of us...Or if he finds it useless
I wonder how things would be If he had never left me
I wonder how he is And if I'm still a love of his

I think about him everyday And wonder if he's okay
I think about how happy we were And the memories make the tears stir
I think about the plans we made While we were laying in the shade
I think about all we said And the lives we lead

To not know Where to go
To not know where to find A place where he may hide
To not be able to see his face Puts my heart so out of place
To not know when he's near Is my greatest fear

There's so much in my head That I wish I'd said
There's so many missed kisses For my unanswered wishes
There's only so many ways For me to make it through the days
There's so little light In my heart tonight

What would I say If given a day
What would happen If I could have him
What joy it would bring To hear him sing
What would I feel If he were here for real

I miss him each day That he is away
I miss him looking out for me The way it used to be
I miss his love That protected me like a glove
I miss him So much it's made my heart dim

I wonder if he still cares That's a question that tears
I wonder what he's like If he'd tell me to take a hike
I wonder if he fears That I don't hold him dear

But most of all I wonder if he still loves me
Or if I'm just a memory
Of what used to be

ill always love and cherish you



photos taken by: MG Shinoda using SONY Cyber-shot® DSC-W50

… they say that only time can heal the wounds of a broken heart. That time makes it easier to accept the lost of the people we love. It is a chain that all of us go through… falling in love, getting hurt… getting hurt and vowing not to love again.., promising not to love again and becoming miserable all our lives. it isn’t easy getting up on our feet after a crippling fall, but there is just no other way but to stand up and move on. nobody want to become unhappy all his life. all of us know how love can bring magic into our lives. have you ever realized how good it felt waking up in the morning knowing that somewhere out there, there’s a person also thinking of you and feels exactly the way you do. doesn’t it feel good?... looking forward for that person and spending memorable moment with him. Love brings joy beyond compare and that warm and sparkling glow in each of us. Love brings us to the top of the world were we can conquer just about any obstacle that make come along our way. it is a great feeling love is… there is probably nothing else in this world that can compare to this. there maybe many of us who feel that love has passed us by and finding someone we can share our lives with seem to be such a remote possibility. we watch trains go by as times swiftly drifts away from us. we maybe in control of our lives, but we feel somewhat helpless in our relationships. there is nothing permanent in this world and not even those we cherished would be with us forever. there is no guaranty that comes with loving. it is always a risk getting involved with someone, but it is a risk that we have to take. if we want to find real happiness… for there is no gain without pain.. there is no permanence without commitment.. and there is no lasting love without constant sacrifice. the tragedy of love is in getting hurt.. the tragedy of getting hurt is in not wanting to love again.. and the tragedy of not wanting to love again is in being alone all of our lives. if it is what we want to be then we could just stay in our shell and be miserably forgotten.. but if its love we choose then there is a promise of a new life.. the joy that being able to share that life with someone and the hope of finding something beautiful and keeping it forever. . .

...to love again..

Radio’s fine
It helps me forget for awhile
I look back and recall
Those days I had with you
Sometimes I need a friend
Just to make it through
Another day without you

You gave me all the reasons to live
Then you had to go
And I just got to let you know
Its hard to love again
Just to make it through
Another day spent without you

And I don’t want to go on pretending
That its going to be a happy ending
If I should love again
Once I’ve learned to love again
And, no, it will never be the same
Without you baby
This pain inside me is driving me crazy
‘Cause, its hard to love again

Friends are great
They cheer me up for sometime
When the day is done
My mind is back again with you
Oh God, I need a friend
Just to make it through
Another day spent without you

JAPZ's sad goodbye to a friend...

It's been 7 days since i last partied... the first few days were tough since i have been craving for booze, loud music and good company... but things are better for me... i realized that in the company of myself, i do not need to force a smile, fake a laughter or pretend i am happy. I have decided to detach myself from everything that has been consisting my monotonous life so i could figure out what i really want. It's all about knowing what would really make you happy, right? Being in the company of myself and some close friends is therapeutic - they remind me, without them knowing it, of the days when i prayed and dreamed for a better life. And now, more than ever, i desire to leave the country and find fortune somewhere else... silently, i pray this desire be granted.

(I miss a few of my acquaintances, though, from everywhere.... I hope they understand why i have to do this...)

"Now it seems to me some fine things have been laid upon your table, but you only want the ones you can't get." Japinoy, you ain't gettin no younger, Your pain and your hunger, they're driving you home, and freedom, oh freedom...well, that's just some people talkin.Your prison is walking through this world all alone."

It is when we are in great need that we discover who our real friends are... sadly for me, nobody even noticed i was in need of one.

"Nothing seems to be the way that it used to. Everything seems shallow, God, give me truth in me and tell me somebody's watching over me. That is all I'm praying... Someday, I will understand, in God's whole plan, what He does to me... and maybe someday i will breathe, and i will finally see... see it all..."

How do you pick yourself up from the pit of failed dreams and dissatisfaction? Sure, the loud music and endless grooving helps - but i'm getting tired of partying and the more crowded the club gets, the more alone and empty i feel. what is this void that consumes my passionate soul? i fear, that sooner or later, i will become just like anybody else: bored, miserable and alone!

I will not be the victim of my own weakness nor will i allow myself to be corrupted by my own strengths... Goddess, help me. I have become the very person I was trying not to be. Take this shadow that darkens my view and let me see the light that once guided my path...