LATER

How would you come with me?
When you knew all along that you had to go
How could you watch me sleep so close to you?
Pretending not to know

How could you memorize my name?
And forget who I am
How could you think you’re still the same?
Believing I can

It’s too late to start pretending
It’s too late for a new beginning later than the sunset,
Later than the rain
Later than I never to love you again

How could you ask for more?
With an innocent smile trusting me to stay
How could you close the door and leave me here?
Supposing I’m okay
How could you breakdown my disguise and uncover my fears?
How could you look into my eyes ignoring my tears?


It’s too late to start pretending
It’s too late for a new beginning later than the sunset,
Later than the rain
Later than I never to love you again

Interlude

It’s too late to start pretending
It’s too late for a new beginning later than the sunset,
Later than the rain
Later than I never to love you again

WhEn...

When you truly care for someone, you dont look for faults, you dont look for answers and you dont look for mistakes.

Instead, you fight for the mistakes, you accept the faults and overlook excuses.

I never welcome something i cant entertain.

I never open doors if i mean to close someone's heart.

I never accept love if i cant give myself in return.

I never start a relationship i know i want to end.

Two of the shortest word in the English language are yes and

no yet they are often the first that require careful thought before they are said.

Some thoughts are better left unsaid, some feelings are better kept to myself

but love has its own way of expressing itself despite the silence..

Life is what we make it.

I chose to accept what cannot be changed and in return accepted myself

for all the frailings and life's turns and twists.

Faced life's challenges whether in love, family,

work or my inner -self with conviction and self respect.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets.

So love the people who treat you right, forget about the ones who dont and

believe that everything happens for a reason.

Know a good thing when you see it and dont let it slip away.

If you get a chance, take it. If it changes your life, let it.

Nobody said it would be easy, they just said it would be worth it...

Let me not pray to be sheltered from dangers but to be fearless in facing them.

Let me not beg for the stilling of my pain but for the heart to conquer it.

Let me not look for allies in life's battlefield but to my own strength.

Let me not crave in anxious fear to be saved but hope for the patience to win my freedom.

Grant me that I may not be coward, feeling your mercy in my success alone;

but let me find the grasp of your hand in my failure.

A SOULFUL RELATIONSHIP by Rev. Ronald McFadden

Before you get involved and make a commitment to someone, don't let lust, desperation, immaturity, ignorance, pressure from others or a low self-esteem, make you blind to warning signs. Keep your eyes open, and don't fool yourself that you can change someone or that what you see as faults aren't really important.

Once you decide to commit to someone, over time, his or her flaws, vulnerabilities, pet peeves, and differences will become more obvious. If you love your mate and want the relationship to grow and evolve, you've got to learn to close one eye and not let every little thing bother you. You and your mate have many different expectations, emotional needs, values, dreams, weaknesses, and strengths. You are two unique individuals,
children of God who have decided to share a life together.

Neither of you are perfect, but are you perfect for each other? Do you bring out the best in each other?

Do you compliment and compromise with each other, or do you compete, compare, and control? What do you bring to the relationship? Do you bring past relationships, past hurt, past mistrust, past pain? You can't take someone to the altar to
alter him or her. You can't make someone love you or make someone stay.

If you develop self-esteem, spiritual discernment, and "a life", you won't find yoursel if making someone else responsible for your happiness or responsible for your pain.

Manipulation, control, jealousy, neediness, and selfishness are not the ingredients of a thriving, healthy, loving and lasting relationship! Seeking status, sex, wealth, and security are the wrong reasons to be in a relationship. What keeps a
relationship strong?

Communication, intimacy, trust, a sense of humor, sharing tasks, some getaway time without business or children and daily exchanges (a meal, shared activity, a hug, a call, a touch, a note).

Leave a nice message on the voicemail or send a nice email.

Sharing common goals and interests. Growth is important. Grow together, not away from each other, giving each other space to grow without feeling insecure. Allow your mate to have outside
interest. You can't always be together. Give each other a sense of belonging and assurances of commitment. Don't try to control one another. Learn each other's family situation. Respect his or
her parents regardless.

Don't put pressure on each other for material goods. Remember for richer or for poorer. If these qualities are missing, the relationship will erode as resentment, withdrawal, abuse, neglect, dishonesty, and pain replace the passion.

The difference between 'United' and 'Untied' is where you put the "i".

...I AM SORRY...

(A thought from an ex lover about the pains with my present relationship)

You've had enough thorns.

You deserve some roses.

I can't believe what you've been through lately

It doesn't seem right that one person should have to deal with so much,

and I wouldn't blame you for feeling sad, frustrated or angry.

Who wouldn't in your place?

I wish there were something I could say,

some incredibly insightful piece of advice I could give that would turn everything around for you.

But all I can do is tell you how much I'm thinking about you and remind you how much i care.

My hope is thatyou can hang in there until life starts sending you what you really deserve...

Bouquet after bouquet of beautiful roses

--~~+~~--

Someday...

Someday you’ll gonna realize
One day you’ll see through my eyes
But then i wont even be there
I’ll be happy somewhere
Even if i cant

I knowYou don’t really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
We’ll iv’e got news 4 you
I know i’m not that strong
But it won’t take long
Won’t take long

Coz someday, someones gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday,someones gonna take your place
One day i’ll forget about you
You’ll see, i wont even miss you
Someday, someday
But nowI know you can tell
I’m down,and i’m not doing well
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I wont have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Co’z someday, someones gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday,someones gonna take your place
One day i’ll forget about you
You’ll see, i won’t even miss you
Someday, someday

Mi Ultimo Adios...

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example,

"The night is shattered and the blue stars shiver in the distance."
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

I've loved you, and sometimes you've loved me too.
Through night's like this one I held you in my arms.

I kissed you again and again under the endless sky.

You loved me, sometimes I loved you too.

How could one not have loved you great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

To think that I do not have you.

To feel that I have lost you.
To hear the immense night, still more immense without your.

And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.
What does it matter that my love could not keep you.

The night is shattered and you are not with me.

This is all.

In the distance someone is singing.

In the distance my soul is not satisfied that i have lost you.

My sight searches for you as though i want to go to you.

My heart looks for you, and you are not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.

We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love you, that's certain, but how I loved you.

My voice tried to find the wind to touch your hearing.

Another.

You will be another.

Like my kisses before.

Your voice.

Your bright body.

Your infinite eyes.

I no longer love you, that's certain, but maybe I love you.

Love is so short, forgetting is so long.
Because through night's like this one I hold you in my arms.

My soul is not satisfied that it had lost you.

Though this be the last pain that you make me suffer

and these the last verses that I write for you.

...NOTE BENE...

You just did'nt know how much i love and need you.
That you are even like my antipathy that irritates me

if there's a day I skip on seeing you.
That is why, every time i see you, the more

I fell myself in every way determined to love you.
But I prefer to shun and rebuff you because I know

you're now happy with your beau.
The love that i give to you is my greatest regret

because I just uttered it now that I know its to late.
Why I give my love to someone that can't appreciate?
It is because I still believe that one day you can value it

and now you know this feeling of mine.
I hope you avoid me not if ever we see each other again.
Because to suppress your gladness and devastate your relationship

is not my intention

and also I dont want to be the reason.
All I ever sought is for you to feel is this feeling of mine

that even just this moment on and by not having a full of regret.

P.S. Please read this letter again but be sure to SKIP ONE LINE.....

Love is one of the most powerful force in this world.
It can wage war and make peace, create life and kill.
It can bring about things that is both great and small, good and evil, beautiful and ugly.
It's weakness is love itself.
Some call it a mystery but for some it is destiny.
Others call it curse and for others it is a blessing.
It is the variation of love and the thousands of definitions for it that makes it wonderful.
Nevertheless love can never be defined by human the human brain because it is the heart that loves.

Even if we lost in a big crowd, I'd still know your smile, your voice, your eyes and I'd still find my way towards you...

Why?
Because I guess when you care for someone... you'll just know.

-nonitz 3.5.07 (11:11:07PM)

BeAuTiFuL DaYs... a song from nonitz

I see beautiful days with you

I feel beautiful ways of loving you

You've touched my heart so deeply

And I can't thank God enough

For all the beautiful days with you

I feel beautiful ways of loving you

Everything is just so wonderful

Every little thing is just so beautiful

When I spend it with you

You came along

In an unexpected time

It was so divine

Knowing you are mine

It feels so right

When I look into your eyes

I never knew that love

Could make me feel this way

I can't wait for the day

When I can truly say

You...

Woh, oh woh

You...

With you I felt fine

So right

I've sang so many songs in stages

With thousands of them watching me

But you're here with me now

And I sing this song to you

To you, baby

Just for you

Just for you

You...

A DATE ALONE

photos taken by: MG Shinoda using OLYMPUS EVOLT E-500

I reached it. My Limits...

Its been a long time since i played the role i knew i should play in the stage of my journey. It would be early i guess for me to say now, that i fully understood the trade. They, the crowds, the individualities, i knew them. i deeply knew the knowledge they're crazy of. that is the same knowlegde that spelled me to my justification today. and for some reasons, i made a theory out of it based on my experience using this art, and i concluded these things:

1. there is no satisfaction guaranteed. as long as there are species of your type ahead of you, surely youll fetch for some and wont stop fetching for it is invitingly boundless.
   
2. there is love ofcourse. a love that is too intellectual to understand. and for some, its unnatural thing for humans.
   
3. No questions. its absolute and true. but you cannot hide the fact someday, somehow it would have to end. and all you can do is to reminisc, those countless sacrifices you made together. for both of you are not meant tobe.
   
4. that it gives you a taste of heaven and identity for a minute, for a week, for as long as you want. but you know deep in you, you're not genuinely happy, later or sooner youll realize it didint satisfied your true heart down there, your soul.
   

and God's Promise will always be in completion to reality.

Maybe its enough to think that.., "Im a soul with a body." that whatever i do with my body it doeent affect my soul. but thats too logical to understand?..

HELP!

Help me realize that i am absent in this reality based game, that what im doing is not really what i ought to do or wanted to do either. i just dont know, im having a difficult time understanding the ego im playing in this society. i do things as if there will be no sunrise, for which i do things that i cannot really understand. just the pleasure it gives me, temporarily satisfying, a quick dream, and a litle taste of heaven. there was no heaven after all. the more im submissive in this spell, coz the spell is reallyt inviting, im getting cholinergic whenever i thougt of it. my sodium retained in my blood and just gives me the spirit to be submissive again. was it a foul to desire beyond your imagination? i live with idealism yet it will never jive with reality.



A MOMENT with SEN.LOREN LEGARDA

photos taken by: MG Shinoda using OLYMPUS EVOLT E-500

As I was wandering around the Walled City, I came accross a group of people from all walks of life. Young and old (infant included) who gathered in front of the Plaza del Gobernador where the office of the Commision on Election is located. they have with them streamers and plackards along showing their loyalty and support with the senator as she filed her candidacy for another government postion for the coming election middle of this year.

I mingled with the crowd and shuttered my camera as I took pictures of her up close... as close as i could actually... and here are some of the pics taken...

The Best of Puerto Galera Trip 2/6/07

photos taken by: MG Shinoda using OLYMPUS EVOLT E-500